Today is another day. It's another new start, another fresh mind set. Today is another day, the sun was shinning and people went on with their lives. It's weird to think that you pass so many other people each day all writing their own stories, all trying to make the best of every day. You don't know anything about it; what they like, what they dislike, who they think about, what they think about. But for a brief moment in time your stories intertwine, your paths cross. And if you were so courageous to begin to wonder what their life was like, or who they are, what they stand for, I wonder if you can help change someone's life.
What if that person you saw crying today needed help, what if they felt like they had no one. What if you could have saved them. What if for that brief passing you gave them a smile, or asked if they were okay.
Today is the day I'm going to change that. I have been on the verge of the end too many times to watch other people suffer. I am going to start randomly making stranger's days. I don't know how yet, whether I help them carry something or give them a compliment or just say hey, I feel like the smallest of things could help.
I know it doesn't seem like much, but it doesn't hurt to try.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Friday, February 22, 2013
February.22.2013
I guess it's been a while since I've written. Its not as though nothing has happened, in fact, I feel like within the past year of not writing I have completely lost myself, but also found myself.
But I don't plan on talking about that right now, I have a question for you.
At what point do we decide that love is enough and we should stop doing the things in life that we want to do? Well, not all the things, but I mean the outrageous ones that you promised yourself you would do before you die, but can't do them with your partner. At what point are those things forgotten? At what age should this start? Frankly, I feel as though I am too young to give up my freedom, but if it was the chose of having that freedom and losing the man I love, or having the man I love for the rest of my life but always having regrets.
I told myself a few years ago to never have regrets. And now at my young age I am already having them because I know being in love somethings aren't possible. I am also wondering what love really is. I thought love was making memories with the person that makes you the happiest in love, and one day maybe having kids with that man. Creating life, creating a family based off love. But at what point does love need to be titled? Need to have a ring, and a wedding, and money down the drain while your 2nd cousin twice removed hits on your new sister in law. Why isn't love enough. Why as a society do we need to label everything and make everything more complicated? People who get married do it for more than the reason of just being in love. Me. I just want to say forever to someone and have them know that I mean my whole heart for my whole life.
I just want things to be simple.
And I know they aren't, and I know life is complicated and blah blah blah. But I also know that we can chose on how complicated our lives turn out to be. We are in charge of our futures, our destiny relies on the choices we make and the person we turn out to be resembles the people we decide to associate our time with.
All I have written about in the past is looking up and staying positive. That is really a tough thing to do. It really is a day to day thing. Being medicated helped a lot. But I lost some of my feelings while trying to get better. So I have stopped taking my pills and am trying to figure my shit out on my own. Well, I'm not on my own, I have family and friends who love and support me. But I am the only one understanding what I am going through. Some day are harder than others, some places are tougher to experience than others, but I think I can do it. I think I have become strong enough that I can deal with whatever life hands my way. I know I'm going to be emotional, I'll have my ups and downs. But in the end I'll be okay.
I think at this point in my life, I gotta stop over thinking things. I gotta just live for the moment. I have to stop taking life so seriously.
But I don't plan on talking about that right now, I have a question for you.
At what point do we decide that love is enough and we should stop doing the things in life that we want to do? Well, not all the things, but I mean the outrageous ones that you promised yourself you would do before you die, but can't do them with your partner. At what point are those things forgotten? At what age should this start? Frankly, I feel as though I am too young to give up my freedom, but if it was the chose of having that freedom and losing the man I love, or having the man I love for the rest of my life but always having regrets.
I told myself a few years ago to never have regrets. And now at my young age I am already having them because I know being in love somethings aren't possible. I am also wondering what love really is. I thought love was making memories with the person that makes you the happiest in love, and one day maybe having kids with that man. Creating life, creating a family based off love. But at what point does love need to be titled? Need to have a ring, and a wedding, and money down the drain while your 2nd cousin twice removed hits on your new sister in law. Why isn't love enough. Why as a society do we need to label everything and make everything more complicated? People who get married do it for more than the reason of just being in love. Me. I just want to say forever to someone and have them know that I mean my whole heart for my whole life.
I just want things to be simple.
And I know they aren't, and I know life is complicated and blah blah blah. But I also know that we can chose on how complicated our lives turn out to be. We are in charge of our futures, our destiny relies on the choices we make and the person we turn out to be resembles the people we decide to associate our time with.
All I have written about in the past is looking up and staying positive. That is really a tough thing to do. It really is a day to day thing. Being medicated helped a lot. But I lost some of my feelings while trying to get better. So I have stopped taking my pills and am trying to figure my shit out on my own. Well, I'm not on my own, I have family and friends who love and support me. But I am the only one understanding what I am going through. Some day are harder than others, some places are tougher to experience than others, but I think I can do it. I think I have become strong enough that I can deal with whatever life hands my way. I know I'm going to be emotional, I'll have my ups and downs. But in the end I'll be okay.
I think at this point in my life, I gotta stop over thinking things. I gotta just live for the moment. I have to stop taking life so seriously.
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