december.29.2011

It's hard to grow up when people are constantly pushing you down. It's hard to think about how much you have grown and matured when every time you are around these people the same side of you comes out. It's hard to be your own person when the time that it really matters, you speak up for once and you are shut down in the worst way possible. Yea, life is hard. Living is hard.

It's hard to trust people when they put you down so much, it's hard to believe in anything when everything has let you down. It's hard to keep getting better and then falling back into the same dark hole.

Yes life is hard. But I think things get better, in the end things get better. I have yet to reach the point in time where things do get better, but I still have hope, and that's all I need.

december.25.2011

Merry Christmas right?

It's weird to think how people's lives would go on without you, like the wouldn't notice anything different. It's weird to think how much better people's lives would be without some of the problems people cause them. That's weird to think about if you ask me.

I know this is different than any of my other posts, but this is because I am in a different place, and I hate being in this place. I hate living here. I just want to go back to the place that makes me happy, but turns out I won't even have that anymore. I won't have a place that is just mine, an escape. I don't know if I am going to be as happy as I have been there anymore or if he is just going to ruin my whole experience.

december.18.2011

I guess it's the Christmas spirit eh?

The only one problem with this time of year is the stress that happens within a family. I don't really have a whole lot to say about this but I will keep you updated.

december.6.2011

Change is weird. Like the days change, the weather changes, styles change, but do we really every change? I think so. I think it just takes some time. I think even the most damaged people can turn their life around if they really wanted to, and believed they were a better person.

I hate it when I see the most talented, smartest, most amazing people fighting with themselves. I can only tell them so many times how amazing they are, and how much I respect them and how much I adore them, but that only gets you so far.

I've never had a person like this in my life before. Someone who believes that I am a stronger person but helps me through all the dark times. I know we aren't gonna be together forever, and I know they are just here to help me through this part of my life, but I mean it is amazing to find a friend like this. They know when I am in trouble and they know when I need them. It's like they are reading my mind without me saying a word, but when I do have a lot to say they are gladly willing to listen. It just amazes me that you have to meet so many bad people in your life, that treat you bad and misread you until you find someone who really sticks in your head.

Thank you for everything.